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When a heart breaks, it hurts. 
But in the end it heals...right? 

Well what happens if it doesn't? 

Unfortunately I can answer that question. 
When you have a broken heart you're sad.
I don't mean the got ditched by your friends sad, I mean the my mom, dad, and sister all moved to New York without me kind of sad. 
The my parent's are putting me up for adoption at age 17 kind of sad. 
The my mom said no Netflix for a year type of sad. 

Love will drive you crazy. Sometimes it's absurd, and involuntary, and other times it's blissful, and perfectly balanced. But most of all, love is sharp, and every time something goes wrong it cuts you, but if it all works out it will cut you loose, liberate you, set you free. It will give you someone who completes you...someone to run with.

You find your true self when you're in love...at least that's what I've heard. You see I don't know if that's true or not. How should I? The last person that loved me back hasn't cared about me since Sophomore year. 

I want to listen to my heart, and all the good things it's trying to tell me, but I can't, because it's still trying to heal from the last girl who told me, "Josh you're a dream. But I don't feel the same about you as you do about me."

2am

; I think I saw this on another blog, but I wanted to make my own. So props to the original writer for unknowingly allowing me to steal some of their creativity. 

2am

2am is for the worriers.

2 am is for the forgetful.

2am is for the hungry, the anxious, and the worried. 2am is for kids like me. 

2am is for the over-thinkers, the under-thinkers, and the procrastinators. 

2am is for the caring mothers, the crying babies, and the snoring husbands. 

2am is for the sneaking out, for the Beto's runs. 

2am is for the Alpine cops looking to bust the kids trying to have a little fun. 

2am is for the kids on Christmas eve.

2am is for the people who work at Megaplex to clean up after a late showing. 

2am is a barrier, if you don't find sleep before it, it's not gonna find you after. 

2am is for the lovers, the fighters, and the one-siders.

2am is for the horror movies, for the cuddling, for watching thunderstorms from the window. 

2am is for the long drives, for the flood of thought, for the deep conversations. 

2am is when you get to really know someone. 

2am is for the wishing, the wondering, and the reflecting. 

2am is for the laughter, the tears, and the phone calls. 

2am is when everything happens. 

So don't miss out.

Nature

Nature is all around us. 
It's in the pencil you're holding,
the pages in the books you read, 
the walls in your house. 

Nature is everything,
the water in your toilet bowl,
the background in your photo shoot, 
the spot where you take your gf. 

But the way some use nature is far more admirable than the way others do. 

All you campers, all you adventurers, all you rock-climbers, cliff-jumpers, river rafters, I envy you. 

I wish I could do the things you do, I wish I could find love in nature. I wish I could disconnect the cords that plug me into the e-world, because they are starting to get tangled, because Twitter, Xbox, and Netflix are starting to tie themselves around me. 

I yearn to be free, to explore, to lose all the stress. It is my goal to get loose...

But right now, I feel like if I unplug the cords...I might just run out of juice...

and die

Terrible time for procrastination. There's no way I will write about death after everything that's happened. Sorry

RIP Hunter Dahl - I will miss you terribly. Thank you so much for everything you've done and the friendship you showed me.

tracks

• Rough - Childish Gambino
• The Sleaze - Wiz Khalifa
• True Colors - Wiz Khalifa
• All Along the Watchtower - Jimi Hendrix
• Little Wing - Jimi Hendrix
• The Palisades - Childish Gambino
• 3005 - Childish Gambino 
• Telegraph Ave. - Childish Gambino
• Worst Behavior - Drake
• Pound Cake - Drake
• FDB - Young Dro
• Here I Go - Hustle Gang
• Medicated - Wiz Khalifa 
• "Secret Track" - Childish Gambino